-The importance of being earnest
It bugs me when people are unnecessarily mean. Like, you didn’t have to make that comment. You could have just kept your mouth shut and left that person not feeling bad about themselves. What do you gain from making someone else feel like shit? Nothing of substance. Maybe a fleeting moment of power but that’s gone as soon as it comes so why? There’s enough unhappiness in the world without you adding to it.
When I was young, I was bought up with a ton loads of Bollywood movies. There was this Indian movie called “kuch kuch hota hai” which I remember was one of my personal favourites. I actually love that movie and can watch it countless times. That movie somehow deeply touches my heart every single time I watch it. Kajol is one of my all time favourite actress <3
What I love about the movie is that in the end, everything turns out perfect. Although both the characters have been through a lot in life, in the end, everything gets sorted out and back into place. It’s sort of about how Kajol gets her first love back. It’s a romantic comedy. Everytime I watch it, all my problems, worries and day-to-day shit just fades away.
I think that I trust people way too easily. I need to start believing in things only after I have personally witnessed them. I also want to stop thinking about pointless issues in life. I want to filter out the people and problems with a strainer. All the negative vibes which surround me on a day to day basis will be slowly fading away. I want myself to be surrounded by happy and bubbly people rather than depressed and attention-seeking ones. And for that to happen, I need to change my way of thinking. Once I will filter out all the negativity, my mind will be calm and relaxed. Then I can stop a very bad habit of mine. Overthinking. And over this year, I will definitely make sure, I will change myself in a positive way.
I would try and get rid of all the negativity in this world. Especially the racism, hate and sexual violence. I want there to be no hatred in this world. Things would be soo much better.
First of all, I will be more confident in myself. My self-esteem will definitely boost rapidly and I will start to dream again. Then I would try to reset my goals and aims in life. I am the sort of person who requires a clear dream (goal) to work towards. Without that dream, I feel as though I am completely wasting my time and everything is useless. I start to slack and procrastinate more than ever. These are definitely some of the signs which start to show up when I feel like my life is going direction-less. And I absolutely hate that. Till now, I had no idea of what I am doing with my life and what I wanted to achieve in future. Over the holidays, I sat down and thought about all the careers which I would suit my personality and that I would personally enjoy doing. I am thinking of engineering cause currently I feel as though it perfectly and realistically fits with my lifestyle, but there is still a hazy fog which is clouding up my thoughts. So I am still a tad bit unsure. So back to the question, I think that my dream is to become something in life which will make me happy, not stressed, give me time to spend with my family, give me enough money to stand on my own feet and that prideful factor. Basically if I achieve this, I would be the ‘happiest person on this universe’. And I have that confidence in myself that I will be able to achieve it.
Well I believe that my reason for existing in this world is to help unprivileged children and try to change the political thinking in India. There are slums in India, where women are expected to give birth only to baby boys. In the hospitals, when the women are taken for pregnancy check ups, the mother-in-law or the husband talk secretly ask the doctor for the gender of the child. Since the women are mostly uneducated and don’t understand what is going on, they can’t really do anything about it. The doctor will take the sonography test and if it is a girl, they will secretly abort her.(it’s sooo bloody illegal and yet people don’t do anything about it at all) How bloody retarded can some shits get. Although I live in Australia, there are tons and tons of documentaries which my parents make me watch. This makes me want to change this ridiculous thinking in slums, like literally.